THE AURORA IN AMHERST
by William Doreski
For a moment, rows of canned goods
in aisle four become the teeth
of something chewing at my heart.
Your'e chatting up our unemployed
baker friend, whose wool cap pulled
low on her forehead covers
scars of her latest lobotomy,
and act of psychic surgery
she performs on herself daily.
I sympathize with such grim
self-negation, but neither of you
have noticed how aggressive
the canned goods appear, how crisp
their labels, how toxic their contents.
Whatever is gnashing my heart
has been busy for many years.
But in this elongated moment
the fractured winter afternoon
oozes salts, acids, fats, additives,
and processed carbohydrates no one
can ingest without consequence.
I'd like to abandon this cart-full
of goods we can't afford and go home
and sulk with the cats and hope
the pain recedes like high tide.
Instead, leaving you engrossed,
I wander to aisle two and examine
labels on hundreds of bottles
of cheap wine from Australia,
Germany, California, France.
The warmth of the vineyard settles
inside me, relaxes the jaws
clenched around my favorite organ.
I return as the conversation
ends in a burst of laughter
that reminds me of Squire Dickinson
ringing the bells at two AM,
waking Emily and her sister,
so everyone in Amherst can see
the aurora borealis wrapping
the village in green flannel light.
OH, WALPOLE
by William Doreski
A row of historical houses:
simple clapboard confections
oozing a fragrance of ghost.
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You want to pry them open
and parse them room by room from
the perspective of a deity.
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An artist in three dimensions
could create exploded views,
but you don't want a rendering
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in computer graphics, you want
to lift the actual lids and peer
with the power of a cyclops
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into a stew of people rich
enough to maintain these large,
boxy, underrated spaces.
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You imagine that their sex lives
assume the Puritan fervor
you caught for a moment of two
​
in the angst of adolescence.
Let's discuss this over latte
in the café where those same
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rich citizens sit and gossip
in the same bright tones you've heard
in Boston, Paris, and Rio.
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Let's avoid rehashing those nights
in old cars parked by the river.
Let's forget the string of murders
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that tilted the village on edge
and ended without an arrest.
Maybe that killer, deep in age,
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lives in one of these houses,
nursed by his middle-aged children
grown wealthy through investments.
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No wonder you want to peer into
their rooms from a steep angle
that would reveal their psychic content.
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No wonder your curiosity
has blossomed like a circus tent.
But I don't want to incite you.
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Forget I brought up those murders
of half a century ago. The sweet
odor of ghost excludes violence—
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everyone historic having died
in bed, smirking over lifetimes
spent more carefully than ours.
GLASS MAN
by William Doreski
Made of glass this morning,
I'm pleased that anyone can see
through me to the landscape beyond.
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Being so fragile I take great care
walking up the post office steps,
and standing in line avoid
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bumping old ladies clutching
parcels intended for grandkids.
The day sighs many great sighs.
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It expects me to understand why
I'm made of glass this morning,
instead of rising in a fist
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of stainless steel. The river
brims at the post office window.
It also is glass this morning.
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If I stepped on it, tried to walk
its naked water, we'd collapse
into each other's shy embrace,
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subject and verb uniting.
I reach the window to buy a stamp
but the clerk looks right through me
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to the next person in line.
I cough to get his attention
but something inside me cracks
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and I have to step aside and clutch
myself to myself to avoid
shattering all over the floor.
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I'll mail my letter tomorrow
when I've reverted to simple flesh.
Today I'd better lie down somewhere
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in the shade so I don't start a fire.
Somewhere in the damp old forest
where no one will step on me,
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my utter transparency
plain as an artist's model,
too slick to exhibit shame.
ABOUT WILLIAM
William Doreski has published three critical studies and several collections of poetry. His poetry, essays, reviews, and fiction have appeared in many print and online journals. He has taught writing and literature at Emerson, Goddard, Boston University, and Keene State College. His most recent books are A Black River, A Dark Fall, a poetry collection, and Train to Providence, a collaboration with photographer Rodger Kingston. His website is williamdoreski.blogspot.com.